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Something I thought
"i'd never know"
You taught me so much,
and I'll continue to grow.
Dirt is the best foundation,
it's sold, it's rich.
Once the storm is over,
something beautiful will grow.
when we were rained on
he was the sun,
that kept me so warm.
Even with the black and blue days,
threatening to wither
you raised me higher
and now I know I can't escape.
The downpour that was promised,
the wet pain came again
the violent clashing of the heavens
ripped up my roots.
Torn to shreds,
only to regrow once more,
but not as a daisy,
that is much too delicate for me
I came back strong,
I grew strong as a weed.
with your contaminated wisdom.
all your faults within reason.
I have an addiction,
to the adrenaline;
to be insane
Will this turn to happiness
or will this pursuit
forever be the same?
What is happiness?
The feeling of numbness?
will death be my final seductress?
to tango with my memories
I've forgotten what life really is.
i'm tired of breathing from this machine
to become another statistic
isn't that kind of mean?
I'm lost in a daze,
the symptoms are back
the feelings, the urges
these capsules aren't helping.
they just suppress my actions
I still feel everything.
I can't escape this
Whichever God as my witness,
my pulse beating with my thoughts
the blood from my body
now rests assured in your hands.
MotherI turned to my mother
and asked her simply
"what do you love?"
she turned to me
quiet and thoughtful for once,
I listened as she went through that list
but not once did I hear her say
the fact she exists.
ones and zeroesIn a world full of corruption
our daily consumption
constantly we hunger for more
we eat away the pleasure,
reduce ourselves to pain
we bring ourselves to ones and zeroes
with nothing more to gain
it's a game, there will be
no winners, only sinners
no prizes, the only thing you want now
is to get out alive
Sky to my SeaSail past the horizon,
soar far into the sky.
living on in my dreams,
to remember you by.
The colour in the leaves,
the life in the trees,
you're the stardust trail in the sky
looking over me.
and the beauty
the universe took far from my reach
you're everything in the world
you were the sky to my sea.
KaylaYou would see her walk by--
Her hair, the most radiant shade of brown.
Her smile was truly the brightest-
even if all the light had left her.
Her eyes could see deep inside of you-
her mind had the power to read mine.
Connected through more than just mere spirit-
she was my sister, everything holy and divine.
Even if you didn't know her-
you will wish you did.
Her laugh would give you butterflies-
her hugs would make you feel truly loved,
even if she felt like there was none.
Her heart was open to us all-
but we all tore it apart.
My sweet Kayla, I wonder if you think of me?
I wonder what crossed your mind the final time?
Who consumed your last thought?
Who's words destroyed you?
Isn't enough blood shed in this world without the loss of a tragically sad little girl?
I tried to preserve her, like a piece of art.
But she's not a object, but a human-
I never deserved her, so now we're apart.
Her beauty was undeniable,
yet she denied it everyday.
She carved her scars with words like 'fat'
ugly heart, cold stare
Don't look at me like that.
Haven't you seen someone like me before?
With words that bite,
thoughts to destroy.
I can hurt you,
please just stay away.
Don't treat an ugly creature like me,
like I'm deserving,
as if I'm worthy-
worthy of beauty.
I fell for you
and you said you'd be there.
You hesitate to catch me;
If I choose to fall in love or apart,
you must promise to always be
Right from the start,
a happiness was shared.
I couldn't help this at all,
you said that you cared.
Just one more second with you, please-
let me spend one more minute with you.
You look for others attention,
there is no mention of me.
Was that your intention?
One day I'll lose control-
I can't get hurt again.
I warned you, I'm a monster.
So don't do this to me now, I grow jealous,
I grow impatient.
Feelings of resent- the only feeling present.
I will hold it against myself until the end-
because you were the only person I could call 'my friend'.
You move on, clearly you
Resoration.I try to get a grip,
but nothing can stop me.
This road of destruction,
could not be more lovely.
My minds configuration,
I forgot to how to play this game called
If I break don't cry,
I can't comply.
Everyday situations scare me,
What if I make another mistake?
Please keep going.I told her she would be okay.
I promised her
'happiness will come another day'
You made me lie,
you made her cry.
Now everyday I'll ask myself
"Why, God, Why?"
Who did this to you?
What were the words that suffocated you?
I can't promise you anything anymore.
But I can tell you everyday
another reason to live
just a moment more.
dreamstatecandles shiver, too bright to brave
fading into night and their delicate
pin tip wicks flicker-flash,
dancing in the ocean-tide winds
betraying the presence of
your ghostly breath
you sneak in like a whisper
(you didn’t use to be so quiet)
but now you tip-toe, weaving fog across
mirror edges in my mind and
you are just a moment
past midnight; three (strike.. strike.. strike..)
it is too late to resurrect you
the love-linger of your warm skin
atop mine or revive our
skewed dependent cycle of your
breath in my crushed rose lungs or relive
memories more faded than
darling, it is too late, let me sleep;
I’ll dream of you anyways
A mystery for twoLet me put my words away
I want to express myself
To speak in a a way only you can understand
Just trust me
The more I yell the less you'll hear
And these matters - well, I do believe they ought to be crystal clear
Believe me, silence is the key
Now close your eyes and reach for me
No, do not touch me
Just be close and fell the heat
Count the tic-tac of my irregular heartbeat
Really, words tend to get in the way
I say this, you think that - we go separate ways
Let's keep things simple
I'll avoid your gaze
You're too amazing for me to keep up
Call me shy or call me crazy
There's one more secret I'd like to share with you
I hope I made you feel like you're special
If you focus you'll find a connection
If you don't trust me or don't believe me, you will see
These things I've never said or did - for you from me
YouYou are my why
You are why I want to be here
You are why I love this place
And every day when i see your face
You brighten each day
When you say hello to me
But I cant tell you
How could I tell you
Just what you mean to me
But I cant just leave it be
So I write this for you
With all my sad and sorrow
With hope that tomorrow
My heart wont ache
And my heart wont cry
That this longing will be gone
So my soul can rest once more
But it wont work
Because without you, I'm lost
Without you,I'm like a cold frost
But with you here
I have nothing to fear
And I hate to say it
Because then it's true
I love you.
Beautiful Constellation (The Fault In Our Stars)And this has nothing to do
Though you feel like one to me
And I know nothing is really "okay"
But saying it makes me feel infinite
Belongs to us
Though it never really did
And though you are out of touch
You are mine all the same
I would dare to let death go
Though you say it's inevitable
And I always imagined a perfect ending
But perfect does not exist
And my thoughts are stars I can't fathom into constellations
Because nothing makes sense to me
And even "us" doesn't make sense to me
Death doesn't make sense to me
It's all a broken reverie
But I still love you
You are my angel
Though this is not really about angels
Because angels come and go
You are here with me in this infinite moment
And we will both die shortly
Death is only waiting for us to give up
And we both have nothing
But the fault in our stars
And the fault in our stars
Does not exist
Though some say
That it is hardly ever our fate that makes us underlings,
TouchI don't want to get used to the words you whisper in my ear
Or breathlessly sigh into my mouth
I don't want to get used to the touches that you give me when sun hasn't rised yet
And the touches you give me just before I fall asleep
I want it so my cheeks blush either bright red or turn pale in the cold air
So that my hair flies in the unforgiving wind and passionate fire burns my skin
So that I never forget what your true love feels like
And how much damage your anger can do to my soul
I want you so badly to suprise me like you did that cold morning
Planting kisses like flowers on my cheeks
And carrying me through the colorful meadows for two hours
I don't want to get used to you.
Home is Wherever I'm With YouThumping hearts speaking in the silence of the night,
Your skin tingles under my fingertips
And I feel at home.
Twirling a soft, midnight strand of your hair,
Your gentle eyes illuminate a song of happiness
Breathing my words of devotion in your ear to you and only you,
I feel at home.
Protecting you from the thorns of life,
Convincing you that you shine brighter than any star in God’s sky,
I feel so alive with you by my side.
Invested in you and only you,
I feel the warmth of your body in my embrace,
And I’m home.
Sunlight VS. ShadowsDarling,
I love you
I love the way you laugh
When I say something funny without trying
The way you smile
Although you don't do that often
The way you try to romance me
With those silly, adorable pickup lines
You always seem to make me blush
You always have a way to make me smile
But now you have her...
Another girl you really like
Another sun to light up your world
Is her sunlight brighter than mine?
Is my light fading on you?
But I'm happy for you
I really am...
I'm glad you have someone to make you smile
I'm happy someone can make you laugh more than I do
I wish you good luck
I'll wish upon that shooting star
For you to have a better life
With that girl who will actually be there for you
I'm better sinking into the shadows
Shall I just move on?
Shall I fade into the night?
Where I will be hidden forever?
It's not like I have a chance
Or anyone else
So please, my love
Will you answer these questions for me?
Shall I leave or stay?
Shall I move on with the feelings
let us be that kindlet me giggle under your nose kisses and
curl up next to you under an unimaginably cozy blanket and
watch your sweet face slowly submit to slumber under the blue TV glow
like a child
let me tug on your clothes and tell you i don't like them, so take them off
and kiss hard and love with dreamy eyes like you're the first star i've ever seen in my life
and decide it's okay that i have roots here, i love Oregon and i never take big chances or challenge myself
like the teenager i am
let us bat eyes at each other down the aisle
and cherish a home finally without other people
and know it's okay that there are hard times, we are stronger than doubts
like the man and woman we aren't yet
let our love make us old and make us beautiful
and our flame only dim by age and
say goodbye in the in the morning when i go to the market
but really mean goodbye when i hear you exhale for the last time
like the ones who never gave up
How can I say this?It feels like a lifetime ago,
like we have met again.
I know I shouldn't let you hold the key to my happiness
and I know I can't ever be yours-
but even if everything's against us,
even when the nights become shorter
all the time I spend with you,
just seems to make it all better.
You're the reason that the sun shines.
You're the reason good things happen.
And for that-
I want to call you mine.
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